random utots

as i'm sitting here... typing sippin' my sapporo beer and draft sake.... enjoying a sake bomb.... i just got a great idea....

cause.. lately i've been eating a lot... just because there are nice food finds near my work... last time i went to Naan and kabob.... it's freakin great and for only 7.99 i got a whole lotta lovin' fucking rockin meal... wow.. it rhyme though it sounds cheesy....

back to my idea....

to those people who wants to loose weight fast you should try fruit and alcohol diet.... i dont know if it will work... but i'm sure it looks healthy cause of the fruits plus ur gonna enjoy it...being drunk while doing your diet is the best... i think there should be an alcohol drink that has 0% calories.... so that the calorie intake would only be coming from the fruits which makes it healthy.... hmm....

maybe just maybe.... in few weeks you will loose a whole lotta fuckin weight....
side effects... your internal organs are fucked up! and you are already an alcoholic.... nice....

good luck to those people who wants to try this diet... i wanna try this to....ciao....

steady...

still trying to get sober today....ive been drinking for the last 4 days... and at least four hours of sleep a day.... getting there.... hope so....

need a new work?

i think i wont last in this job.... maybe few months..... i really dont know.... this is just not right.... my job title is lab technician... i got the degree... and some MS units... and i will be put as a lab tech... it's okay if they are paying me like 20 bucks per hour... but that's not the case.... and i talked to my manager... cause i'm doing an analyst job.... maybe for him its not a big deal... but it is for me.... and for the experience... it would be a plus... and its way too low... for me... cause i used to be a supervisor in the third world...now... i'm just planning to have my transcript evaluated so that i can have my degree qualified for the so called US standard or whatever they want to put it... it's like... wtf??? for me.... well.... i'll stick to this job as long as i haven't been able to find a better job than this...... it's just hard....

what to do with this life?

just this afternoon i dont know how and why it brought up... but it made me think.... what should i really do??? should i continue my masters here, take up some units for chem eng???... take up MBA? cause my bro in law is well paid in warner bros. which makes me think that if i want to earn big bucks i should take up some business course... how about accounting??? i know i can make it... how about arts??? should i do that just to male myself happy??? i'm a bit confused on what to do with this life.......everyday i want to do something new... i can never satisfy myself...just like what i posted earlier it's been like 2 weeks since i started with this job and i'm already bored... maybe because there's nothing new for me to learn....it's like most of the things that are being done in our section of the lab i have been able to do it or i already know whatever concept there is... i need something new... i need something to learn... i need something that would give mw new knowledge... not some crappy job like this....but i cant quit cause i need money to support myself....i dont live in philippines anymore.... i need to work to support myself any pay my share for the bills....some people think life is good here.... for me life is way better when i was living in the philppines... in there i got my own house....i got a car though its way to old....but i enjoy everyday living in my own place... here... the only thing that helps me make i trough the day is the idea of i need to earn something and i'm earning way better than my old job.. but i definitely miss PI... no doubt... classes are going to start soon... but i havent decided what to do next... maybe next year.. i'll enroll mysefl back to school.... but still i havent decided what to do with this life... oh... well... let's see...or maybe i'll just live my life back in the philippines.... i don't care if i start back from the bottom...

work sucks...

being a new guy in ca ompany is pretty hard to adjust with... being trained for techniques you already know is annoying... making you look stupid as if you dont know what you are doing is bitchin'.......it's just my second week... but i feel like quiting already... i dont know... but i'm just bored at work... 8 hrs... i'm just listening to my mp3 and to the murmurs of that Cambodian guy who is training me right now... i cant wait to move to another analysis and be trained there....but it's cool that every now and then i go out with my co-workers during break time... going to random places... cause i got no idea of the places to go there in irvine... actually that's the only thing that i like... eventhough i'm with the group.. i often find myself... looking far away... looking for something... and i not talking much... i dont know what happened to me... it's like i'm a different person already...it's been more than a year... since i left philippines... and a year with out social life... i dont go out... never been to a bar here in cali... it's not me anymore... maybe because i'm already used to living alone before.. an living with my parents is pretty hard to get used to... fuck this.... i wonder in 5 years in what country am i be living?moving from one place to another is kinda hard but i would like to experience every culture..... i dont care if i cant be thath rich... i dont really care about money....hmm.... how long will i stay in this company?i need working experience... so maybe a year or two? whatever...

i quit....

i just decided to quit... yeah... i quit smoking today... i think this is the 3rd or fourth time.... and i hope it would be the last time..... i'm just sick of it....

on the other side of my effin' life....work is just boring.... i just dont know why did i took up CHEMISTRY..... f*ck this course... though i liked the subject.. but i need a better work.... i just need something else.......it's just fucking boring right now.... and it's been only like 2 weeks.... i wish i could go back to college and take up fine arts instead... any course that would be inclined to art.... cause upto now i haven't been able to let go of that dream.... just being an artist... or whatever you wanna call it... i just want to do something that's fulfilling... for me.....i'll stay in this job cause i need the money... yeah money is everything right now... maybe i would win if i try playing some lottery...